So this is irritating.

Being involved in an organisation like Mediation Northern Ireland is a wonderful experience. Though I feel like my involvement here is kind of half-assed. I was asked to go to a meeting in Ards with ex UVF men to talk to them about their work with mediation. Unfortunately, this meeting is on March 19 which is our day of class in Derry for the week. I emailed Nigel to tell him that I had to miss class to attend this meeting, and he doesn't want me to miss class.

This is so annoying. I hate that I was signed on to do something half-assed for this organisation. I don't want to miss this meeting because it will be essential to my project for MNI and very helpful for the GSP, too. I don't really understand what's so important about going to the Fountain estate. Sometimes I feel like this program takes up far too much time for what I get out of it. We will have to leave the Elms at like 7 in the morning and won't get home until at least 7pm. Plus, we have to drop £13 of our own money for the bus. I'm sorry, but to me that's more trouble that I want to go through for this stupid program.

Northern Ireland: Democracy and Social Change is very carefully designed and Nigel has put a lot of work into it, but I don't understand why this one day of class is more important than a meeting that is significant for both my internship and my study project. I just don't get a lot of things, I guess, and this is one big one.

I'm tired. I'm tired of a 9-5, and I'm tired of stressing out over stupid shit to do with this program.